For a long, long time, I think I have gone quiet. I don’t want to write as I used to, and, surprisingly, that doesn’t bother me either. I remember a time when I was so desperate to pour out my thoughts on paper, but somehow that craze has taken a backseat. Is it a bad thing or a good thing? Well, I do not know. All I can say is that there are phases that mould us all, and I am going through one such phase, I guess.
Probably not only me; in this era of social media, where we are constantly bombarded with information overload in the form of snippets, news bytes, and content in every single form kind of messes with one’s focus. But the same can also serve as motivation to create more as well. However, I have gone back into the chair of an observer, where I am noticing everything from afar, but I am just hesitating to participate in any of it. Is it work pressure? Is it the responsibilities of an elder child? Is it mere procrastination? Is it burnout? Is it the result of many rejections of my writing submissions? Is it a lack of faith in myself that I can write well? I do not know. I do not have the answer. All I can say is that I am in my JOMO era, i.e., the Joy of Missing Out.
I think just like life, passion too is an unpredictable path to pursue. I know for sure that my heart can not go quiet. Eventually it will feel overwhelmed and spill out everything it has to say. And I have read somewhere that you can not just sit and wish for the motivation to work for you. You too have to gather courage and walk towards it. But my question is: despite knowing the answer to what needs to be done, why does it feel so difficult to actually do the ‘right’ thing? Does it happen with everyone, or is it just me failing at something I want to excel at?
All I can confess is that, currently, I do not feel the need to find the answer. I have had panic attacks, but not anymore. I want to take this opportunity to sit back, enjoy my time with a book, and even if I write, I want to write like an amateur who commits mistakes without the fear of being judged. With all these jumbled-up thoughts, I have decided to participate in the Blogchatter Half Marathon. Will this attempt help me rekindle my passion for writing? Only time will say.
So, what do you feel about this? Have you ever had such similar thoughts? If yes, tell me how you came out of it?
Love,
Chinmayee
You’re right. Sometimes, it is ok to watch from afar. To each his own. I have taken such breaks too; it help to refresh and come back. Good to see you at the marathon.
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Thanks Janaki for your supportive words.
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I used to spend so much time wondering if I was doing it right. Now I know that I’m just doing my best and that’s enough!
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I need to apply that rule too.
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I relate to this so much. I haven’t written in a long time, you know that, both of us were writing at the same time, i have become quieter and calmer. It seemed you read my mind and wrote for me. I have always admired your writing
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Thanks Deepika. Yes I do remember that we started out at the same time. Thanks for your kind words. Wishing you the best too.
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I too had felt the old passion of penning my thoughts slip me by. I guess , it has more to do with umpteen people writing rather than reading . But am glad you want to recreate the magic and more power to you . But then much to be said about Joy of missing out too 🙂
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I totally agree. Thanks for your kind words.
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I completely agree with you. The joy of missing out is all the more important in this “in-your-face-“kind of posts. I feel we are all living the life of consant scrutiny.
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Exactly ! Thanks for your comments
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Hello Chinmayee… all I could make out from this emotional post of yours is that you are actually living the life the way you want and I appreciate that. Writing should come from not as an obligation. I too have reduced writing and even reading to a great extent. I write and I read when I actually feel like and not like a must to write or must to read book like habit. Enjoy the moments of JOMO… You deserve and so do many of us. In my view you are on the right track.
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Appreciate your supportive words. Thanks for stopping by !
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Keep writing Chinmayee.It may appear to be difficult at times,but its worth it .The trick is to do it for yourself .That way you will always have an audience.
The blogging world is going through upheaval and we all need to swerve.Take care
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Thanks a lot for the encouragement
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I always felt why writing as many are writing. Each story or writing is different. When I read a post or writing that makes me wonder why I write when there are many who write so well. I came out of that when I received comments about my writing. Each story is different. Keep writing. I realized when I read posts on Blogchatter, amazing posts.
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Thanks a on for your kind words.
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