so a new month has arrived ! Nothing new , right? Time is like a river, it flows and brings change . Well I identify with this change , this month for its a month that made my existence possible . Happy? No I don’t just feel happy, I just connect with it . This feels something like my own ! Even this feeling was missing but I now am again trying to get it in my heart again. I have something in my mind that I want to put it across in the below mentioned points to keep the post crisp this time.
1- Consistency :I have realized that even creativity needs discipline and sometimes a lot of effort. Being an Aquarius I find it very very difficult to be bound by anything ! Mood Swings and relying to create something when I want to has been the norm till now . I think this needs to be change .As nothing comes easy, even a hobby needs to be consistently worked upon and hence I have decided to write daily, however short but I will pen down my thoughts even if it means a small paragraph, a micro- tale, a three liner etc… whatever! I undertake to read a lot this year .I want to compile few poems and probably write a novella if not a novel this year! Keeping my fingers crossed.
2- Procrastination: This has been my biggest enemy and I still find it hard on certain days to maintain the rhythm. I have no solution to this and all I can say is to work on my self motivation to keep this at bay.
3- Engagement: Being in Creative field , one needs readers and connoisseurs and that can only happen with engagement with the right target group. Again this needs a lot of time , energy and effort. I currently suck at it as I hate any other social media except Twitter and that’s not going to work. So with a big sigh I do have to indulge on other platforms. I also need to explore Medium which I have been ideating for so long!
4- Personal Wellbeing: I find it easier to love than demand being loved, to give rather than ask, to worry about the macro and forget the micro “me” . The focus needs to shift and I can be again be absolutely happy with February. Every single malign is baseless now. To take care of my own health and mental peace is one priority area . Self – love is still a very difficult terrain for me . But , hey I am trying !
5- Personal Goals: There are certain goals that I aspire to chase , well again , yes again! I want to enjoy the journey and not just breathless run towards the destination. There are some places that I want to visit , may be solo travel ( on vacation : though official solo visits have always been there )is one area that I want to explore, to write on varied genres and experiment with my writing pattern. This phase of acceptance has happened after a long and difficult time and I believe , there are stars up above knowing every secret that I have hidden within this heart and may be they will bless me one day , guide me on the right path, connect me with true ones !
Until then, I shall keep a smile on my face and count my blessings , to try and see what I have and may be complain less about what is missing ! I will always keep my loved ones in my prayers and wish few hearts do pray for me as well !!